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Sunday, February 8, 2015

Looking Beyond the Here and Now

Thinking back to a few years ago, I would have never said that I would have a baby by the time I turned 20 years old or that I would be settled down with an amazing guy!  When Joshua and I first started dating, I would have never guessed that prior to a year of being together, we would find out that we were expecting a child!  Although having a child at 20 years old was never what I had planned for, I wouldn't have it any other way!  What I'm trying to get at is no matter how much you try to plan out the future or want to think things are going to be a certain way, the universe will always have a plan for you.

When people ask me where I see our family in a year, five years, or ten years down the line, I can't definitively answer that.  I could never say exactly how I think its going to be, because I could be completely on the wrong realm of ideas.  I have goals, ideas, and wants, but what happens if I wake up tomorrow with an opportunity of a life time that will completely askew my "life plan."  Joshua and I are both people that live for the moment and take each and every day one step at a time.  We don't have a five or ten year plan.  We are constantly changing our minds about things.  For example ; one day we could want to pick up and move and the next we just couldn't possibly imagine leaving our friends and family behind.  

Ideally in the perfect world, I want seven children ; six boys and one girl.  I would also like to have each of my children be around two years apart.  This is something I have always wanted, but who knows, I could end up with baby number three or five and decide that having seven kids just isn't for me.  I also would love to travel, maybe pick up and move to another state for a few months then come back home to Minnesota.  I would love to see my small business take off and become a huge thing, having a professional seamstress and my own store front!  Lets not forget about a wedding, I would absolutely love to marry the love of my life and the father to my son.  

I can never be sure about when, if or how these things will happen, but for the time being it is what I would like to think my future holds.  I like to say things like "I can't wait for Joshua to finally pop the question" or "I can't wait to give Kane siblings" but in all reality I would love for these things to just happen unexpectedly.  Although we weren't planing for a child, I absolutely loved the surprise of finding out that we were expecting!  I am starting to say things like "I can't wait to see what the future holds" because I love when new and exciting things happen.  For right now though, I am completely content with where our family is at.  I am beyond happy to have the people that I do in my life and to have the opportunities that I have been given.

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